Manwich

Tonight I had the pleasure of dining with a gentleman friend of mine I see about once a month. We get really high and then visit a good (preferably ethnic) restaurant for a night of laughing and meandering conversation. We had a really good time tonight - not sure what, if anything precisely, made it so fun, but we truly had a good time. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time.

Something came up that I can't get out of my head. I've been thinking about lesbianism a fair amount, not in an permanent sense, but out of bi-curiosity and a desperate need for ANY form of sexual interaction. I've recently been given what I think was an open invitation to join the ranks of the sexually satisfied, by a female friend. We know each other, which makes me unfortunately hesitant.

I'm not a good liar. If I'm not into it, it may make things awkward. And what happens afterwards? I know I wouldn't want a relationship (I don't want a relationship with anyone, really), which means ultimately the arrangement is doomed...doesn't it make more sense to just quit while you're ahead? She's definitely someone I could have a threesome with, but one-on-one?

Anyway, discussing this with Albert at dinner simply lit up his whole night. He eagerly told me, "Let me know if you need a man for your Manwich." Does that sound like fun for a guy? I briefly had a makeout sesh with two guys in college, and just a few minutes in I was overwhelmed. It seemed like so much work! I would definitely never volunteer for something like that. But Albert piped right up, seriously, he wasted no time offering his services.

Whether I'll follow through with the planning behind that whole situation (oh the drugs we would need!), only time will tell. But do all men leap at that thought? I don't honestly know how many women would, MMF or MFF. Some, for sure, would be curious. Is that all it is with men? Curiosity? What exactly is so exciting?

Not that I'd turn down a MMF if it came along right this instant...Well. Maybe I would.